I start this off by saying that I am 100% committed to my Master and what he says goes, i ask him to go out and spend time with my friends, none know about this and wouldn’t approve of this, my Master is my ex fiance and that in itself is hard enough, i am his first Submissive as he is a very new and inexperienced Master, he is learning quite fast and is picking a lot up from my help, im not a first time Sub i have been twice before both times to men who took it way too far with me and never respected the safe word or my comfort, my only use was to get them off and that was final.
Now back to the topic, im not very good with back stories and such and I dont want to go back into the past or to talk about my previous Masters and their control issues
My Master is a far and good Master even if hes still new to it… i was never forth coming with what i wanted in the relationship between us and we broke up, within all the heart brake that was our failure of a vanilla relationship we started talking to try and save the friendship we had before we where ever together, the topic of BDSM came up one night and i told him i missed the life of being submissive to a Master to have the rules and the regulations that a Submissive has i also missed the punishment as strange as it sounds, it was a strange choice when he said he wanted to try the life but he didn’t know how to say it to me while we where together.
The relationship between us failed for a few reasons lack of communication being a big part of it, we both are very bold personalities and when we fight we are fighting, we spent as much time fighting as we did having sex
The sex was amazing… i was a borderline sex addict and he was happy to see me pleased… he was willing to give somelight things a go like chocking and spanking but wasn’t too sure after that, i was happy with that and didn’t want to push him being only 20 and his first serious partner that wasn’t a teenager, i was 24 when we got together and he was 20, we are now respectively 25 and 21.
His age was only an issue a first with me as i dont like dating young but i gave him a shot and im glad i did, hes funny and has an amazing personality we are very alike at times. We moved too fast and that also added to the death of everything, im trying to find my balls to ask for another go at this but more so before him being my boyfriend but my Master my owner, I have fallen in love with him all over again in a different way
He has seen the dirty kinky side of me the side i hide and he hasn’t turned his back on me cause of it, he wants to see more of it play with it tease it have me begging for it, i welcome it on my knees waiting like a good girl should, im starting to like this life again… im feeling like i should be, i missed this life and i want to stay…
Master lives 6 hours from me now, but we make it work in our own way, he talks to me everyday he still gives me jobs to do like any other Master would his pet, i still please him even if its just video calling or through nudes, we are making it work in our own way we have rules and boundaries set up and in place we both know the rules, i have jealously issues and i dont like Master with other women but its something that I have to move past
I know this is all over the place but its good to have a place that i can talk freely, Master doesn’t know about this blog yet but i will show him in due time
So long for now